(Apparently I have too much time on my hands today if I'm posting twice. LOL)
An old friend emailed recently after reading the blog and suggested I consider a future career as a writer. I chuckled to myself, as I had hesitated even setting up the blog because of the inner dialogue I was having:
"You have nothing important to say. Why say it on the internet?!"
To which my Self responded, "Maybe so, maybe not. But why judge yourself like that? Just put it out there and let other people decide if it's worth reading."
So here we are, nearly 1150 hits later (admittedly it is probably me refreshing the page over and over, LMAO)... but to get a comment like that was really... nice. (So thanks, old Friend!).
I have, in the past, considered... well, perhaps that's too strong a word... momentarily thought might be more accurate... that I'd like to one day write a book. I've done some freelance editing work for a couple people and have enjoyed that. And the thought of sharing myself through my writing is somehow a little exciting. But again, I had a repeat of the above conversation, only a little more... a little more harsh with myself. "Why write a book?! What the heck would you even write about?!" LOL (That's where I'm currently stuck. What the heck would I write about?!)
Aren't those conversations we have with ourselves absolutely hilarious?! And so downright totally self-deprecating? :( Where did I ever learn to judge myself so harshly?! (Okay, well, this isn't a therapy session - let's just not go there.)
So, fwiw, let's write the possibility of "published writer" on my list of future career possibilities, alright? While we're at it, let's add the ones I think of more frequently (and with less argument from the voice in my head - LOL): "cob builder", "compost pick-up service", "Reiki practitioner", maybe even "Counselling Psychologist" (I have half a Master's degree on hold at the moment)... right now, my life path consists of labels like "Mama", "Wife", "Lifelong learning guide" (aka homeschooling parent), "caretaker of our home", "tai chi volunteer instructor", "La Leche League volunteer leader", and others... (none of which involve paid work, but all I am passionate about)... I digress...
I also got another email from another friend who said she has made the transition from a Vegetarian to a Vegan diet.... and she said *I* was the inspiration!! (
blushing) I was so honoured that she found anything I'd do
inspiring. LOL (There's that voice, only it's on the outside, isn't it.) I often reflect on my role as a parent as one of role-model. I really
really work hard to be a good role model for my children. No smoking, no drinking, no drug-dealing or any of that nonsense.... (anyone who knows me is ROTFL because I'm such a straight-and-narrow kinda girl). I exercise, I eat healthy, I try to be mindful of my words... in short, I try to be a good person, in the hopes that my children will learn by seeing what I do (and not from what I say when I have moments of short-fuse-ed-ness (that's not a real word)). So I guess I shouldn't be so shocked that my friend also found inspiration through me. Honoured, that's what I am in this moment (said in my best Yoda voice - LOL, sorry, can't be too serious in life - must laugh.) :)
I bow to you both in reverence and gratitude.
namaste
~n~