I had just been getting back into regular exercise, rowing a couple times a week, slowly building up my running a couple times a week, when I appear to have badly sprained my ankle. It is swollen and tender, and no, I haven't gone to the doctor. I've been icing it, and rubbing an herbal salve on it, and I'm going to make a comfrey pack to put on it as well. It is actually fine, imo, but I can't stay off it all day like I probably ought to. So I've stopped running (& rowing) for the time being, which bothers me, because I want to be out there doing it this time of year, enjoying the fresh air.
That being said, the weather has sucked lately. Even today it is cloudy and overcast, not sunny as one would expect on a June day. Saving grace is that dd gets her cast on next week and will be in a cast until mid-August, so hopefully it's not too nice out; spending yet another summer with a leg cast on is LOUSY. But hopefully this will be the end of it. *fingers crossed*
Have to get going; have tai chi this morning. Finding it a lot, teaching 5 hrs a week and being there 8 hrs a week for classes. I opted out of class last night; we get such little time together as a family that when dh is home it's nice just to hang out all together.
Things are busy (slightly overwhelmingly so) but good. One of my gf's is coming to visit next week, and another the week after. The house is badly in need of cleaning and I was hoping to get a door on ds's bedroom this week (which hasn't yet happened). I confess I've been playing "hay day" on the iPad instead of tackling the much-needed house cleaning. Not setting the best example for the kids, lol.
Generally, although things are good, I'm feeling slightly 'meh'. I haven't been eating completely raw lately; finding it hard to make complete meals for the rest of the family and then make myself something. So I then opt for smoothie or whatever they're eating. *sigh* I'm not feeling a lot of support for eating a raw food diet in this house.
I can hear it in my words: I'm struggling right now to feel vibrantly and fully alive, to love everything the way it is, to feel at peace. I think of when I've felt most alive and it was when I'm fully raw and exercising regularly - then life just flows and I feel so radiant. And these are things only I can choose for myself. Today's mantra: I am deserving.
Namaste'
