Dreams....

yesterday my son told me he had a dream that i was lying in bed and had had a baby overnight, unbeknownst to me!! I laughed. he wondered what the dream 'meant' - that i won't have anymore children? that i will? i think it's probably something like a new project or interest or something will be created by me, and since i'm not planning on creating or starting anything today or anytime soon, it WILL be a bit of a surprise if i DO. LOL

last night i had a bizarre dream. i was out on a boat, apparently a coast guard boat (LOL) where i was working/volunteering. someone from my past (yes i know who it was) was in charge of the boat and so we were out on this boat (others as well) and this other boat we were following was in danger. it was a sailboat and had flipped underwater but the crew was fine - they managed to flip it back upright. i had a folder of papers and stuff with me so before i jumped into the water to help (wth?) i tossed my binder or folder onto the chair in the cabin and then jumped into the water to assist. turns out my 'assistance' actually ended up flipping the sailboat back underwater - i guess i wasn't as helpful as i intended, LOL - but the crew once again managed to re-flip it upright. pretty funny. but as i got back onto the boat, this person from my past had gone into the cabin and got my folder off the chair and was rifling through it!! i was shocked. he took something i was intending to mail to someone else (a gift my son had bought for someone with his own money) and opened it up and spilled the contents out into the water. i was so upset - i said, 'my son bought that with his own money! he's going to be so upset!' the dream continued on inside an army building (again, i'm LOL here), but nothing ever got resolved.

i woke up and spent a great deal of time thinking about relationships - about this person from my past, about relationships between people, between groups of people, between countries. As i lay there, i could see how i had something to learn from everyone who has come into and through my life and i reflected on many people and what lesson i had learned about myself from them. i began to think about the chinese & tibetans and the conflict there and a wellspring of compassion grew inside me for both the chinese and tibetan people. i kept thinking about various people and relationships and the meaning and growth they've offered to me. hmmmm... so that's how i started my day.

namaste
~n~